i am contemplating if i shd repeat my A's.regardless of whether i pass or not. my ambitions haf changed so much from the time i knew i had one. firstly, a lawyer. corporate lawyer. n for tt everyone i knew thought i will become one one day.n today, i haf successfully drifted away from that dream.yup its a dream after all.n i'll stop it jus here. but even b4 tt, i always wanted to join the SAF. its still a possibilty tho.if i work up my physique tt is.its in a horrid state now, but hey... if there is a will, there is way. n YOU STOP LAUGHING! n of cos the dream job wld be to serve the nation with my law degree.the legal side. n i will stop there again.i believe in miracles, do u? but i also believe tt i shun trust or lay my expectations on it too much, or even a bit.
i mus say that i am amazed at ppl who really haf high expectations of their A level results.actually they haf the right to be.cos they worked hard.but then and again,dun be unrealisitic la.u haf been getting F all ur life and u wan an A next march. i mean its not wrong and i dun mean to be Mean but hey.u jus make me feel funny.yeah tt is the word.
in response to my post ystdy, my buddy xian told me smth pretty sensible. while i was out there seeking unconditional love,she told me, "hey but jaysh, even God does not give u unconditional love wat?" yeah babe so true.though the equation does seem a bit faulty, it is somewat true. according to her, u muz do gd n do this n that to fully receive His love n i dunno wat more. u sort this out urself.
so today i had a feast. after reching sch at 12 plus, i ate a pack of beehoon with sausage,egg and luncheon meat. den IMMEDIATELY, i ate a chicken wing. a can of green tea(yummy) together with a small pack of potato chips also went in. and after tt, i ordered nasi goreng with a fried fish. and totally jus for that alone, i spent $7.40.yup i am glad deepavali gave me $$ to eat!
after tuition Vish sent me to the mrt station.this goes out to u n u alone. as much as u can be as tho ntg reali bad happened btw us both, i cant. and gd luck gal. i wanna see u walk thru the doors of NUS law fact.
i hate growing up.let me get back to the time where i memorised my storybooks n played with my amma's money purse, impersonating a cashier. i loved those innocent times running ard n my undies and hugging amma. and playing with u appa.
like how these memories can nvr come back to life...u cant too right?
on friday, 10th Nov 06, its my daddy's 3rd yr anniversary. ur soul will rest in peace daddy. and my nice buddies out there, pls pray for that too.
and now i am gg to eat.kekeke