problem

i seem to have a problem. with many ppl in my life.
with myself as well.

hmmm.

1. i got SMU interview date today. but for a course tt i totally dun want.i am upset.
2. i feel good to be on track with a busy schedule. pls pls jus dun distract or try to put an halt to my lifestyle.
3. i feel so bloody damned fucked up about money problems. i so shitty hell feel that families with money probs will nvr be able to get themselves outta it.cos money itself is a problem. i am so happy with the way i SEEM to manage my finances sometimes. but really, whr the hell do sum ppl keep their brains when coming to spending other ppl's money?? in ur rectum?( jus in case u dun rmbr, tts in between ur large intestine and ur anus, waiting to be spilled out into the toilet bowl whr it cld jolly well join the ever efficient singapore sewage system and sing " this is home truly") u f*cking dun spend a single drop of sweat for that dollar-note in ur wallet yet u wanna talk so much? knn.
4. nowadays i realise that there are seriously sum ppl who are so bloody worth giving ur time and love to.i aint gonna mention any names cos that might just be an understatement of my affection and respect for ya all. i mean wat else can i say abt ppl who bother calling u everyday and smsing just to know. i jus salute u all.

i dun wanna say more.

adioz

back from mum;s place

well.
its me again.
i seriously dun feel like blogging.
but this is pretty much my close buddy for this moment.
its just as simple.
i dun feel like sharing stuff with real ppl anymore.
i like how the virtual space somehow substitutes human relationships.
hell. leave that.

so i am back from mum's place.
damn i am so sad. i really wish i cld be there 24/7.
and i love how this feeling has nvr left me for a gd 11 years.hmmm

my nephews and nieces are doin gr8. i am so happy seeing them doing gd in sch as well. ultimately, seeing my sunshines rising up the success ladder is one of the things i am truly living for.

i feel i have grown up. matured. and turned evil.
i somehow dun seem to care abt hearts anymore.
not even my own for that matter.
i seem to care abt my amma's place, my house and a selected few frens.
surprisingly, i dun seem to be emotionally driven.
i do get into emotional spasms ( like how i had one with valvin ystdy at the bus stop) but really at the end of it, i seem to shake myself outta it.
and that is pretty tough; pretty much an achievement.
sumone so emo and soft on the inside and hard on the exterior... this is just so not me.

but boy am i glad i am liking this.
like hari always says (used to, rather) " you are not mother theresa la jakama. dun put the world's burden on ur shoulders"
trust me dude. i have so gone past the stage.

there are many obvious reasons. firstly i am out of the i-dunno-the-world phase. i now truly get to see ppl and the dirty dirty bastardly world.

secondly i fight for my own survival.
with not a single cent from home with the label allowance or whatsoever, i struggle with tuition kids who barely gimme a steady monthly allowance.with that comes my own personal expenses, salsa, karnatic, birthday gifts, mothers' day and worst of it all, handphone bill.
and am i proud to say that i live with my head up high this way.

thirdly the best of it all, the ones whom i seriously thought i will swear my life and love upon have clearly made me feel otherwise. not only have i been frankly running away, i am glad for this dejected and totally f*cked up feeling.


coming to a close, i feel that i still do have love for everyone else. especially for ppl i cant really reach out to. like my friends overseas ( thats shalani, vishal, akshaya and soon to be saras akka) and wait wait wait. did i forget to mention appa??



and in this little heart of mine...

(pardon me its just that i cant seem to show it very much cos of the stoned me)

as much as i would love to get back into the old jayshree persona...

i rather stay away.

and be in love with love itself.

and no one else.

adioz.

busy

its been a good ten days since i blogged.
wondering what this lazy,unemployed princess been up to?
well i have been busy.
you see you see.

i have tuition kids who terribly suck the blood outta me. they always cancel tuition last min. so everytime my plans have been made for the day, they call when i am taking the lift to their flat and say that they cant make it. yesh. it happened once.

and then there is my weekly salsa and karnatic vocal. which takes up 2 of my precious weekday evenings.
afternoons i try making out with the treadmills and inclined bench( read gymming)
i hang out my new found love Sathiya babe.Though she's a lovely mum of two kids, we both turn kids ourselves when we hang out together.

i am supposed to do loadsa work.

yesh thiv i know i haven met u. i will try to ok?

i got sum online work to do, set a few question papers for my tuition kids, my driving,
gotta sign up for hatha yoga, practice paatu, and yeah of cos, finish up my things-to-do list.
worst, i have a good list of missed calls to return.
hell.

Shree is busy man.
so if ya were contemplating on giving me a call n screaming at me abt not giving u enough time/ wat kinda fren are u/ this is my last time smsing u to return my call.
think again.

urs cld be a missed call.

kekeke.

adioz

bored

B
O
R
E
D

liverpool.

well.
i wasn't there.
i din watch it.
i din celebrate then.
i din see the goals.
i din see the shame in the Gunners.
i din see the victory of the REDS.


http://soccernet.espn.go.com/report?id=199388&cc=4716



The Gunners have knelt down in shame cos the REDS have risen.


LIVERPOOL 4
ARSENAL 1


hahahahahahahahaha.