i went clubbing ystdy. in the toliet.hehe yes i did. took a long shower for abt 40 mins.wanted to waste time n waste orur esteemed NEWater. i mean after all, i am jus supporting the authorities in promoting it lol.i was in a super singing mood n sang so many bloody songs. with the shower head raining over my head in delight.it loved me i tell u. azhagiya asura was the best. i bet i turned my neighbours on with my low n sexy voice and with all that sexy grooves, my my. i loved it, thats the only time i'm alone with no one watching me ( i hope) n being myself. having fun with nudity. i felt like a baby. trying not to insinuate anything. yeah i love water. all over me.moving down from head to toe esp feeling it down ur neck.it felt too good.inexplicable.all abt being a woman n feeling that feminity in you. woa. rocks me out of my seat onto urs.
the next time i sing that way, i'd record the SOUNDTRACK n post it. u'll know it then. now u know y i learn carnatic. wahaha.
So yeah. math paper tmr n yes i aint studying.i dun feel like.i wish to regret after this cos i'm so weak in pushing myself on.yeah i admit.i hate it.studying and u.haiz i hate math.actually not.i love to study. but things ard jus does not let me do so. c'mon try it. put urself in a room.confined to four walls.look at the books on ur table.stare hard.n yeaps ntg is gg inside. and there is no music(yes my mp3 got spoilt cos of over-use).no one to talk to.no one to say that they love u n wish ur presence tat very sec. and a mirror tat reflects ur face n no one else's.yup one day is possible. for ten mths?try it n tell me.after that, i swear i wun complain.
surprisingly this whole bloody hell life is coming to an end.supposedly.yes the damn F A's has tired me out n left me unbothered just after two bloody days. i hold no regrets after this if i screw it all. cos i've got plans to run away from just ALL OF U.yeaps. ALL of U. n dun come back saying " I know u wun leave me right? ". pls. dun make me say i will.
Ultimately, what i want is for u ppl to let me live life ON MY OWN. leave me alone.
i miss u daddy. come back n bring me back to u.