my thoughts

today is the 8th. the day i reached australia,perth, exactly 5 yrs ago... that very saturday...
and when the sunday night came... i knew my life had changed forever... i had lost my pillar of strength.

recently i have been feeling pretty 'dependent'. maybe cos i have not been running ard for tuitions and stayin in sch to study for long hrs. feels gd yet smth is so amiss.


u know smtimes u just feel that u are missing this part of ur life. this void. and i know its not cos of my appa. hmmm. when u feel the loss of attention, thats when u feel it best.the loss i mean.
well i hope that by staying away, i will gain at the end. i hope.

i just heard this horrendous news that i was 60 kg last yr on nov 28. i dunno how far its true. while thiv says its not true and my other half says that it is definitely true... i dare ask anyone to bring a weighing scale to me now. Your Highness weighs a near-to-petite 47 kg. wahahaha. we'll see if i can lose another 2kg more by xmas.

oh well. i have been having nightmares for a long time. of being chased, of being cheated, of falling and hurting myself n wat not. scary sial...

well i better go eat n study. cant waste much time, can i?


adioz.

lost my voice. happy :)

over a short period of 4 days, i guess i fell too sick. lost my voice and cant seem to get out of bed. luckily i managed a day out with my friends for diwali visiting on saturday.


crap i think i am having a horrid breakout on my alrdy fairly bad complexion.


i have soo many things to speak abt. to speak my mind. but suddenly i feel all sorts of restrictions on me. those that i have put on myself. hmmmm crap.


certain things i have to say.


i aint mourning any loss of any particular friend in my life.


i have alrdy labelled you a bitch. so beware not to cross my path cos u are so gonna fuck-slammed in ur ears.


what goes around comes around. sorry, i know i should be by ur side, but i cant help but feel this way as well. i do feel very sorry for u and i wish u good. and thanks Kanna, i wonder if i wld have reacted as maturedly as u if i were in ur shoes. i really doubt so.


watch what i say to you. i know its always better to keep a distance. cos i nvr know when u gonna stab me in my back once 30 days is up. once bitten, twice shy.


i kinda have this odd feeling in me. i know its utterly ridiculous at this point of time but yeah, i cant quite help it though. *laughs*


oh hell. my running nose screws me up again. its running faster than i do. well anyth does.



adioz.