my attempt to revive my blog
so sem exams are approaching
diwali is over.
i need to start studying and it starts from tmr!!! ( i hope)
tuitions just ended. but luckily for me this yr i have kids who wan tuition thruout holz.
thiv asked me to blog at my feelings. maybe i shd.
hmmm. i guess giving in is all abt life. no i mean life is all abt giving in.
i guess i shd no longer waste my efforts in getting angry and feeling hurt. its really all up in our minds.
i mean, lets just be silently 'selfish'? muz i think so much and create such emotional turmoil for myself?
if i choose to let go and have no expectations of ppl ard me... i know for sure life will be a better place.
*oh god. i got a bit confused here*
well anyway thiv made this kind observation of me n my activties. individualistic she said.
i cant deny. me gg to sch, my classes n tuition n heading home with no social life etc.
niva also goes thru the same routine as me. well, sumtimes we work so much for the future and dun live for the present. it sucks. but when u know that u are gg broke the next wk itself, might as well get ur ass off to work right?like i have a choice, dammit!
recently, my other half said that i am being very childish. i have realised that i am being such an idiot to some people in my life. i have taken steps to seriously rectify it. but isn't it just nice to sit down and wish u were a child all over again? sighz. i miss those days man.
yes thiv, we will make up for all the time we din spend together by going out after exams. first place, SHOPPING!
next makan, makan, makan in tekka! yey.
my last thought of the day is that, if i really want to, i can. although i do relapse into my those 'off' moods and become such as ass, i suppose, it is still under my control.
wel, i suppose i just wanted to be a gd gal today and blog like an angel.
oh well.
woman by birth, bitch by choice.
adioz.
:: look into your heart ::
:: hear it speak ::
:: listen ::
:: hear it speak ::
:: listen ::
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
mess
right now everything is a mess.
from my room to my modules to my schedule to this blog to my relationships.
room
its a mess. has always been. now cos of spring cleaning, its even worse. books and clothes strewn everywhere.
modules
i keep reading but it des not end. annoying. i am up to date yet not. confusing! in the arts fact, reading nvr endsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss..................................
schedule
who said teaching tuition was easy? now they are having their exams. den tuition ends. we have exams and we go broke. wtf
navratri sucked the living breathe outta me. uuurgh.
sch sch sch. paatu and dance class. i cant complain enuf yet all these truly hold my sanity.
blog
loadsa drafts saved... incomplete.
dun feel like posting them. let me see, wat more excuses can i give?
relationships
friends.fiends.
funny.
how u think they know u so well but then and again they prove u wrong.
i so believe that frens can be ur downfall as well as uplift u in many ways.
my other half thinks that friends are the world.
my best friend spends his salary on them.
my babe just think they cant understand her ever
my dhostu just changed her mind abt me after suffering a few injuries
and i here feel so upset that the frens i thot were the coolest ever dun rmbr a thing abt being cool and worse still abt the times we were really close.
so very odd. its damn sad
i think i so rmbr every moment with such love for many of the ppl i deem close and i go like,
'hey do u rmbr blah blah blahblah?'(with a fucking stupid excited tone)
and den i get a blank look
OR
"oh yaaaa!" and den they tell me smth that does not even exist to my imagination.
i am such a wild dreamer and i dream a lot abt having fun.
thing is, i usually dun have fun. i dun seem to have time and so i hold on to dreams and memories. but ppl dun see such things.
basically they forget.
for me this does not work out entirely.
this day, seated at my laptop and doing the usual that i have not in months makes me feel odd.
cos i realise i have missed out loads and i dun/CAN'T seem to regret it a bit. (except the bit whr i have missed out on downloading songs) i suppose my 'frens' have made them worthless in the meantime.
and den haran replies me telling me how we both cant be without each other...
i guess friendship is a ship that nvr sinks after all!
adioz.
from my room to my modules to my schedule to this blog to my relationships.
room
its a mess. has always been. now cos of spring cleaning, its even worse. books and clothes strewn everywhere.
modules
i keep reading but it des not end. annoying. i am up to date yet not. confusing! in the arts fact, reading nvr endsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss..................................
schedule
who said teaching tuition was easy? now they are having their exams. den tuition ends. we have exams and we go broke. wtf
navratri sucked the living breathe outta me. uuurgh.
sch sch sch. paatu and dance class. i cant complain enuf yet all these truly hold my sanity.
blog
loadsa drafts saved... incomplete.
dun feel like posting them. let me see, wat more excuses can i give?
relationships
friends.fiends.
funny.
how u think they know u so well but then and again they prove u wrong.
i so believe that frens can be ur downfall as well as uplift u in many ways.
my other half thinks that friends are the world.
my best friend spends his salary on them.
my babe just think they cant understand her ever
my dhostu just changed her mind abt me after suffering a few injuries
and i here feel so upset that the frens i thot were the coolest ever dun rmbr a thing abt being cool and worse still abt the times we were really close.
so very odd. its damn sad
i think i so rmbr every moment with such love for many of the ppl i deem close and i go like,
'hey do u rmbr blah blah blahblah?'(with a fucking stupid excited tone)
and den i get a blank look
OR
"oh yaaaa!" and den they tell me smth that does not even exist to my imagination.
i am such a wild dreamer and i dream a lot abt having fun.
thing is, i usually dun have fun. i dun seem to have time and so i hold on to dreams and memories. but ppl dun see such things.
basically they forget.
for me this does not work out entirely.
this day, seated at my laptop and doing the usual that i have not in months makes me feel odd.
cos i realise i have missed out loads and i dun/CAN'T seem to regret it a bit. (except the bit whr i have missed out on downloading songs) i suppose my 'frens' have made them worthless in the meantime.
and den haran replies me telling me how we both cant be without each other...
i guess friendship is a ship that nvr sinks after all!
adioz.
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