relationships. appa's foto

Relationships

such a big word it is.of all sorts.totally controlling my life.admitted out of shame.

let me tell u smth. i am extremely happy with my life.totally contended.and that is scary.i do not know when, what will screw up.sucks man.being happy sucks.ironically.fear of pain n sadness.but hell. i am happy dude.

wat makes me feel good?other than you, its really my lifestyle now.

i am busy.seriously tts wat i am.n i love it.running here n there.losing sleep.in btw grabbing myself some space to catch my breathe.and later smiling away.

life in school.den usually out.later tuition.after which i head home to mark,eat,use the phone and sleep.maybe a sneak or two at the tv screen.

tadah!morn comes again.bringing smiles. =)

and tts where holding onto relationships comes along.as a daughter,a sister (yes to u val as well), a teacher, a friend, a buddy... and the list adds on. so many n so much...u need to tell everyone how u still love them...n yes i haven forgotten u as well.

but isn't wierd how i feel the need to keep reminding ppl ard me that i am still around... cos i feel guilty for not showing enuf attention? wat if it is the other way? do u think i will even ask, or utter a word for that matter?

Conclusion is, Love at ur own risk.

be it ur mum or ur dad or ur neighbour or ur wife or even the sweet ones who hold ur hands tightly as u cross the road.i feel the need to tell u ' hey u r still on my mind'.else i know u will forget.yeah that is the harsh reality of life.

going further, i like how i got busted by certain relationships this week.

one by a friend i shall not mention whom. but hey dude. u really did upset me. u screwed up the whole friendship. cos i held u closer, n u saw me as a stranger, u taught me a lesson. i cant get any better. it wun.u know that i aint happy. so leave me. dun worry i wun do the same back. i aint as bad as u.

the other was the bigger blow.by relatives i shall say.safer.

sorry i only do things out of concern for YOU ppl.u made me realise i am an outsider after all. i hated the slap in the face.nvm the making use of me.i guess i expected appreciation.or maybe just a thanks?

and you my dear amma.jus cos i din call, u 'angee' with me??but my dear, were u not busy as well? but i guess on ur side it doesn't matter.fine its my fault.i surrender to u. i dun like playing with thaaikulamz.

haha. n u in the name of my dad. Since when did u realise that i am alive? Oh when u got ur new car? oh hey, was it when i asked u off shamelessly in ur face? its time dude u chase me outta the hse.trust me. i am happy to leave.anything at all to get my sight off ur disgusting self.

another pal.gal,i know.other frens busted you.now then u see me too?i like that.how u learn abt a fren who truly cared for you only after the rest had dumped u.u feel the pinch eh?guess wat babe. ya dealing with a loser.i still see u close. come.play with the word friendship again.deal?

nvrtheless i am happy.cos i know there are sum who truly care.those 5-10 ppl who frequently check out on me and go...

" hey amoi/jakama/potti/monkey/donkey/makkal/mike/babe/akka/angel/etc,

how are you today?"

i feel it. now u knw why i am happy.really.cos of u people.

and finally the relationship lost yet strong.

if u had just read my blog, do this for me .

1. look up.




2. smile




3. say "happy birthday appa"

24.02.46 - 10.11.03

i jus did. Happy birthday Appa. You may not be around. but hey, u are 61 this year!!! appa sooo young still ah.. haha. muax i love u appa.more than anyone else.

u better quickly come back here. else if i miss u too much, u might end up seeing me up there with u.QUICKLY!

right beside one another, we'll smile down on this earth.

and yes.with the tears too.

BIRTHDAY

Birthdays are fun... filled with love , dreams n gifts!

Ystdy a special someone's bday was filled with gifts, fun, love and family...
from the early morning blues to late night soccer...
i enjoyed sumone else's bday truly...

with mine upcoming ... i only pray for little fun n happiness
for i know daddy that the moment u left me, birthdays have become non-existent...
why u may ask..
i guess it was truly on March 9 2004 that i felt that u had left me totally. Sixteenth bday...not sweet but truly sour...
with tears extinguishing my candles instead of my breath...
tell me when u will be back.. and we will have it all together...

Appa... with ur 61st bday coming this sat 24-02... i feel so sick to live thru the day without you...

Suddenly... i am missing you so much...hating to see you in sumone else...
i guess its cos u are around me... looking after me more than b4
show me urself once pls and i will nvr ask for anyth more...

i rmbr the last song u sang to me... ur 50th bday... the way u smoke and eat... the words u spoke to me b4 i left the airport... the LAST kiss n hug that we nearly did not share...

and



ur face on ur death bed


kill me instead


anaithu kondaaye pinbu yeano sendraai...

the happiest day eva

hey guys this is the pic Ram fam took on meerra's arangetram

almost a candid shot haha.anyway from left: me, bashirah, manju, vithiya, sharmini and thiviya!

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today.hidden.true.myself.forbidden.enjoyment.you.laughter.smiles.blush.close.pain.

forever.sweet.beautiful.nice.remembrance.speak.hearts.truth.

fingers on the nose.swing.lying on the lap.hands.belly dancer.picture.drink.

medicated oil.sweet secret.super glue.dance.precious.you.deep.

truly myself.

adioz

Meerra's arangetram

so yup ystdy was my child's arangetram wahaha.
my dear meerra performed excellently. she was jus fantastic.who the hell cares u made mistakes man?i loved it inside out.. meerra u rock la really.
i loved her varnam n thillana pieces. excellent. no wonder i am taking two yrs in varnam class already haha. it was wow wow wow.

17 feb 2007 has made history in my life.one of the best nights out. oh yeah i jus said night btw.
i wore a green sari n yeah with an outrageous blouse.but hey its my mum's n my fave one :) okie fine. but hell

Ram Family was in sari. all the pretty pretty gals. will upload fotos soon. we looked hot. haha
i had fun guys yeah soooo much. no doubt we are all living our own lives... putting aside differences and getting together to be one really means a lot.

the walk from VCH to padang only to be lost among the manjan crowd.

two funny malay men who offered the mini van ride and told me to take a PHD and the whole marriage joke n tt dumb man believed it. hey Sharmu is supposed to marry first man.wahaha

haha in gaya3 i was the first to eat. haha all the food sumhow came to me first.

Amaran u ah... bring u expensive restaurant only u wun eat.
after that the cab ride home *blush*blush

and reaching home at 11.30.
well i rebelled.or rather it seemed like it. either way i liked it.

oh yeah i took a cab from Raffles place to VCH. it only cost me $2.50. darn the bloody extra surcharge was THREE bucks.screw tat manjan.he argued abt how he was missing out his reunion dinner.cos i grumbled abt the extra.hell we all know how u manjans eat porridge every evening with that kangkong n stir-fried pork with all of ur family.. ( hey my cheena frens sorry abt this. but damn that guy is a disgrace to u all man)

but one thing KUDOS to the manjans la. CNY means everyone is together.we bloody yindians then only will play politics.

"last yr XYZ nvr come to our house.so this yr that house no need to go". WTF

and yeah ang baos for them is really like over 1000 plus at the end of the day. last yr Diwali i had a meagre 40 bucks. cos i was 18." big gal readi ma" crap man. my mum, 55, got a ang bao of 28 bucks jus cos she attended a delivery on CNY!!!*jealous stare*
so the patient and her hubby celebrated their new baby with ang baos and of cos CNY. how nice. tell me one tamilan who does that. "the government giving u pay right?" will be the first question they'll ask n wun even wait for the answer. basket



anyway Gong Xi Fa Cai to my dear friends.


this means Fortune. may Good fortune knock on ur doors and u will be nice enough to direct it back to my house. wahaha.its all abt giving dude

oh yeah my chinese horoscope for u guys. This is sooooo true! check it out. i got shocked myself. btw i am a piscean(march 9 1988) *hint*hint

http://www.usbridalguide.com/special/chinesehoroscopes/Dragon.htm

after all that happiness in a day, truly bluely i feel loved. nice feeling.

i love this kannukul yetho song... aaah it kills.for the wrong reasons wahahaha

avan kangaloadu iru nooraandu, mookin azhagodu noorandu
avan azhagin katha kathappil aandu ainooru vaazha vendum


ok mutton curry is awaiting me.
adioz

tiring day. the day RJ

gosh.
why the hell do i get sooooo tired smtimes?


today was funny.
CNY celebrations in YCSS. haha.we guys dressed up in their sch uniform.haha
we guys had fun la. Dinesh the ahmad,jonana the bimbo,dudley the brat,meishan the lazy,woei lin the nerd,alicia the wise n aiyo me the councillor.dammit.so not me right?i so looked like one of the other animals in sch man. they said i looked very 'cedarian', *smiles*



this is din and me trying to be kiddos

this my group of relief teachers
dammit.'the outrage of modesty by the oldie' as valvin put it.dammit.i poured some coke/pepsi on my white pants today.n my faithful students off cos threw their heads back n laughed.grrr.well so while iwas washing up in the toilet,i got valvin drying my pants for me while i hid like a hamster ( yeah) behind the toilet doors.so came this little cheena old hood who insisted that i came out from my 'hiding' so that she cld sweep the floor.wat in the hell was she thinkng man???even after explaining my dire situation,she rattled on abt her cleaning duties.c'mon we all know wat slack manjans u all are la ok.so the poor Shree had to wear back the wet pants n act nonchalant to the giggles of once again faithful students behind me.


the rest of the day was laughs, smiles and blush. :)

i am tired man. let me GO

kannil theeyai veithu koligiraai

adioz

i am back!

ok so its Shree here again.
its been a good two months since i blogged.haiz MIA for so long eh...
peeps realli sorry abt that.

1. JOB
i finally got a job in YUAN CHING sec.sch
gosh gosh dun ask how i ended up there. well u know how i feel.. dun ya??
its near my place.teaching eng and lit.
i jus can describe it all in one word.
Horrendous ( read: sick,pain,tiring,burning,annoying)
in short its jus like diarrhea, or sometimes constipation. whichever is better :0


2. MSN
i haven been on msn as well. my faithful (read: spoilt) comp that holds my 1,561 songs made my mouth water ystdy when it finally switched on. but of cos, it jus so saw a need to screw up my internet. CB
oh yeah btw just in case you guys din know abt this blog, do left click. cool eh? OK FINE.


3.PEEPS
amidst of all that nonsense in my life... i have finally found some time after all that 'socialising' i did last year. with a year totally wiped out of my life, here once again i am out of hibernation and facing the spring. my collegues in sch are pretty cool, easy to work with. Dinesh, adorably called as dinnu or dinny, is a joy to be with. the fact that i know him a long time ago jus helps, really.

students are bad. i shan mention any from my classes. they are full, pure, unadulterated brats.
Valvin(paal kuva) and Rajiv(mooku odinja oonaai) are sweet. ask me how i met them. while i was talking to amma, these two clowns walked ard and waved at me. quite cool guys. and yesh, they love annoying me as well. they cant help it. YCSS mah... but hell, i enjoy their company. such sweethearts.and to the one who said i am having affairs with my students, i aint a lesbian nor a phedophile. get alive dude. be glad i aint out with ur other half. eeee i dun wan also.

4. MATTERS OF THE HEART
as much as i dun wan2, i cant help it. politics is politics. play as much as u wan. jus continue. more than anyth i believe truly in retribution. u suck la really.
in the two months, so many things haf happened. Vishnu's dad passed away. reminded me so much of appa. shan dwell on that much. haiz. life is not easy for any of us. Sorry vish.
thaipusam was cool. i liked it. though it was filled with with those filthy UK makkals. haha they clap hands while piercing their Vels. alamak this is not indiya man.
talking abt piercing i got myself another ear hole between my ear and my temple. its that tough piece of nerve.hardcore eh? its my official 12th piercing. ok the belly one and lip one is on its way. traffic jam la.
1st bro bought me an ipod nano.damn cool.my internal radio staion is still not shut yet. how wierd. my heart sings one song while the mp3 does another.( pun intended, with a bit of metaphor pls) hmmm take abt being normal.i am la


5.A levels

as much as i hate you, i know u are crossing my path soon. dun make me meet u again after that. pls la mike :( shree paavam right?


6.photos
so maybe u forgot how i look. hahaha Braba saranya is not blind; u are. idiot.
these were taken in ammu akka's wedding. i know my smile a bit the funny/wierd. but yeah i plucked my eyebrows. i think i hate that very much.still liked the bushy ones. (check my prom pix for reference)

this is hema and myself. sorry guys she is taken. my bro's gf :)

(from left to right)
nithiya,hema, michelle aka ammu akka (the bride) and myself

haha. my uncle made us do this. kudikaaris of the century. actually i am the musa here. nithya is a gd gal la. wahaha

plain tired after all that norukkuraaning in sari. haha. jus like the indian gal song by Vallavan ;>

my uncle made me smile with my lips closed. eeee right?i look fat.

he made her do it too. aaargh. but she looks the same. pretty pretty cuzin. stop drooling dude.she's taken too :)

okie dokie i am really tired now. i cant spill it all out now already.

u gotta build it up. tease a bit. take a bit. take it fully and let it go completely. like a true blue orgasm.

wahaha

if love hurts you, accept it. cos that is the only way to living a complete life.

adioz