sem has come to a closure. after exams, i wanna haf fun fun fun.
the exam outlook seems ok only at the moment. with sociology n singapore studies going gd, lit is moderate, psychology is at its suckiest point. ( yes u read it right sherinah, jaish n our overweight ms niva who are our psych loosus, oops majors.) how the hell do u guys do it maaaaan?
just to share a few thoughts.
i guess in my life, or rather in our lives, time n money play a very impt role. it is sad to see myself not making full use of either;in short not valuing both of them. before i can turn back and give a nod to their presence in my life, they seem to live my sight. haiz. i hate myself for doing this injustice i tell u.
i am taking so long to type this entry cos i have been by mosquitoes and i am going... scratch uncontrolled.
easier said den done, everything needs a control.
i have realised smth. ( i realise many things but do nothing abt them actually)
it makes no sense to put in ur heart and soul over many things. cos basically not everything turns out the way u wld like it to be. and so, dun build false hopes. cos disappointment isn't easy to handle.
it breaks ur soul, squeezes its way up ur chest, chokes u in the throat and escapes thru a little pain in ur eyes. as ur tears.
i hate repeated episodes. be it in some soap operas or even in my life. now that i have allowed a little repitition of some sort, i realised.
nothing is gonna change in a long time.
on a brighter note, i am in love with the movie 'shakespeare in love'. its too nice for me to even comment abt it. For those of u who already know, it takes its place after kanda naal muthal in my life. just waiting to get hold of the VCD/DVD. den hahahaha.
while writing this, i am watching a scene on tv where a father/husband has died. yes its a tamil show, and with all its exaggeration and stuff.. evoking much sympathy (empathy in my case) , i cant quite handle the story behind this.
u know seeing sumth like that in ur life...
i rather get a divorce / stay away from my father / lose contact completely
den to live life through with them and lose them to death
and undergo the pain of having to live without them ever again
i rather u be far away... like now.
i dunno if this makes sense. maybe ultimately, its both abt staying away from each other. but yeah. i know wat i am saying. in those many ways in which i am saying...
below, i am posting the lyrics of a song that has bestowed its addiction on me.
Uyirile En Uyirile Uraindhaval Neeyadi
Unakkena Vaazhgiren Naanadi
Vizhiyile Un Vizhiyile Vizhundhavan Thaanadi
Uyirudan Saagiren Paaradi
Kaadaamal Ponaai Idhu Kadhal Saabamaa?
Nee Karaiyai Kadandha Pinnaalum
Naan Moozhgum Odamaa?
Uyirile En Uyirile Uraindhaval Neeyadi
Unakkena Vaazhgiren Naanadi
Kanavugalil Vaazhndhuvitten Irudhivarai
Kangaliley Thoovivittaai Manthugalai
Indha Sogam Ingu Sugamaanadhu
Adhu Varamaaga Nee Thandhadhu
Nee Marandhaalume Un Kadhal Mattum
En Thunaiyaaga Varugindradhu
Aaraadha Kaayangal En Vaazhkai Paadamaa?
Ini Theeye Vaithu Erithaalum En Nenjam Vegumaa?
Uyirile En Uyirile Uraindhaval Neeyadi
Uyirudan Saagiren Paaradi
Kadaliniley Vizhundhaalum Karaiyirukkum
Kaadhaliley Vizhundhapinney Karaiyillaiey
Indha Kadhal Enna Oru Nadai Vandiyaa?
Naan Vizhundhaalum Meendum Ezha?
Iru Kannai Katti Oru Kaattukkuley
Ennai Vittaaye Engey Sella?
Aan Nenjam Eppodhum Oru Oomai Thaanadi
Adhu Theruvin Oram Niruthivaikkum
Pazhudhaana Theradi
Uyirile En Uyirile Uraindhaval Neeyadi
Unakkena Vaazhgiren Naanadi
i dunno how to label my feelings for this song.
adioz.