my 100th post
dedicated to u.
i rmbr i rmbr...
i rmbr i rmbr everything that had happened btw us
i rmbr i rmbr all those times i fed u
i rmbr i rmbr the time u fought with me cos i din feed u
i rmbr i rmbr the days we drove up to the beach and ate breakfast in the car waiting for our workdays to start
i rmbr i rmbr u used to fetch me after temple and not start driving till i smear the holy ash on ur forehead
i rmbr i rmbr the times u stole away from ur camp just to fetch me and meet up for lunch
i rmbr i rmbr the day u locked me outta ur room just cos u were angry
i rmbr i rmbr the sms u sent me saying that i'd make a fantastic wife and u wanted to start a family with me
i rmbr i rmbr the time u fought with me in the morn and surprised me minutes later in the train
i rmbr i rmbr u brought me to ur friend's death anniversary prayers but left me in the car crying after a fight cos u din want to explain to ur friends who i was
i rmbr i rmbr u saying tat i was an embarassment to u cos i had put on weight
i rmbr i rmbr watching u sleep all those hours and how u'll wake up smiling cos u were jus happy to see me there watching u sleep
i rmbr i rmbr i surprised u one morn by appearing at ur doorstep and u were grinning ear-to-ear
i rmbr i rmbr u wetting ur hair again after u had forgetfully dried it after ur shower cos u wanted me to dry it for u
i rmbr i rmbr u complaining on the phone in the wee hours saying that u cun cycle/climb/swim and all that extreme sports with me
i rmbr i rmbr u saying that there were many out there for u and u just had to choose whoever u wanted but u chose to do me a favour by being with me
i rmbr i rmbr u said that ur parents were gg to be surprised upon seeing me cos i was not that model/tall/super hot gf like ur ex-gfs.
i rmbr i rmbr u refusing to answer my calls and made me wait under ur block for two hrs b4 the day u went to KL and the next day u msged me saying that u were upset i din meet u
i rmbr i rmbr u deleted the 1000-over smses we had sent each other in the 1st mth n u kept the nasty ones so that u will rmbr those harsh moments
i rmbr i rmbr the way u fully trusted me and nvr suspected/questioned me
i rmbr i rmbr u telling me that u rather die den to lose me. yes i still have that sms
i rmbr i rmbr u saying that u will love me from wherever u are should u only have 15 mins to live. have that sms too
i rmbr i rmbr u writing to me from ur course, saying every other day u wished u were back in my arms
i rmbr i rmbr how u,annoyed, called me a chatterbox and 'apparently had a lot to say' after not talking to u for a month
i rmbr i rmbr u following me to Hindi class and the subsequent ones u went for was cos u had to go and it was no longer for shree cos she was already urs
i rmbr i rmbr for one of the hindi classes u decided to be really sweet and came right after my class ended just to send me back home altho u din go for it
i rmbr i rmbr i came smiling up to ur room the first time ur dad spoke to me - and that was almost after a mth i knew them
i rmbr i rmbr u scolded me late one night just cos i asked u to go out with me tt wkend
i rmbr i rmbr u did not call me after u returned from ur one and a half month course and made me cry the whole nite and u refused to answer my calls and lied to me the next day that u did msg me
i rmbr i rmbr the day u left for ur course ur parents and sister were speaking to me abt how much they loved ur ex gf who cheated on u and ran away.
i rmbr i rmbr the day ur dad scolded me on the fone cos i wanted to see ur mum n clean ur room and told me not to go to ur place... all after u left
i rmbr i rmbr the front-row yogi-b concert tickets u bought for me n i thoroughly enjoyed the show while missing u badly cos u cun make it
i rmbr i rmbr u told me u completely had no time for me but u had time to update ur facebook/friendster and wat not.
i rmbr i rmbr u told my bro first that u had gotten ur ranger badge when i had prayed for u and ur safety all the days u were at ur course and i had to find out tt u passed thru him
i rmbr i rmbr u dropped me off at a busstop near ur granny's place cos u wanted to end it all and later came back to fetch me
i rmbr i rmbr we fought on the streets at tampines just cos my friend passed u food in a container u din like, which had totally ntg to do with me and later to make it up to me, u brought me to Delifrance and bought me my favourite bread pudding.
i rmbr i rmbr all the sinful desserts we indulged in and the gulab jamun moments which i swear i will nvr forget
i rmbr i rmbr u waking me up at 3.45am to tell me u ended work and indirectly told me u wanted to meet me by saying u had ntg to do. and u waited at my door.tt nite u took back ur clothes that i had kept with me throughout the period u were away and u were angry tt i had not washed them - cos i smelled them day and nite and even cried over them cos i had missed u.
i rmbr i rmbr the day u told me i was too dependent on u and that u were moving on
i rmbr i rmbr i saw myself weak on the chair and my chest all tightening cos i cld not accept the rejection and i started to beg u till u refused to reply to my msges
i rmbr i rmbr i called up my friends for help and they called me a weakling
i rmbr i rmbr i gave myself just two mins to end the two-month wait for u and snap myself outta this dangerous game
there is a lot more i rmbr i rmbr my dear heart.
i fatefully and faithfully walk down memory lane every other day.
and as the heart refuses to forget and ache for u,
i just choose to move ahead forcefully.
i am half-hearted abt turning back the clock tho.
i just wish that one day for jus one moment... u will turn back and...
maybe smile abt wat had happened...
a rollercoaster ride it was.
adioz.