after 6 yrs of being a teen and almost reaching the BIG twenty, i finally behaved like one ysdty.
my dad locked me outta my hse cos i came home late from a party.
i tell u. altho i got pist mad at everyone cos they weren't helping me to get inside, in a way i felt it was really comical. which is why i am shamelessly admitting this in my blog so blatantly.
point is, i had promised my bro and mum that i will be back hme by a stipulated time. however i was called home an hr earlier and that too i politely abided by. so i did rush back home ( btw i had a gd conversation with the cabby) only to be left stranded outside. so that was a totally unreasonable thingy. but considering that my dad n i have a cold-war for a long time since already, i cun quite say much.
haiz. i dun quite know wat to make out of my actions. have always been known to be behaving maturedly, but i felt like a small gal ystdy. sighs. it was so embarassing. knowing my tendencies to be rebellious, i almost went back to the party i came from. but yeah that was only 'lip-service'. i din dare do it.
well, i aint affected by this a bit. cos i have had worst shit b4. just wanted to pen this down cos it is a day i will rmbr. the first time ever... a sign of growing up?? i dunno. maybe. an addition into the list of 'oh!-i-so-dun-wanna-rmbr-this-day'?
haha. yups.
after cleaning up my room today, i plan to finish my polit sci essay. den mon till wed with my lit essay. den philo essay by the 5th. and den after downstr8 mugging for the sem exams.
and yes. the matters of the heart.
been brave. and pulling myself thru. just spare me the stress of repeating myself or asking for the status quo. Shree has put it all on hold. the timebomb is just ticking away.
and i admit defeat. wat u said was true. my fault as much.
if only i din care as much and nvr judged sumone.
i learnt smth.
dun judge. the less u judge, the more u love. even Jaish Ram said so once.
btw i miss u gal.i know i have MIA-ed from u a while. but u r really my yardstick to whether ur shree is fine or not. i bet u know tht by now. am getting back. gimme a while more ok. tnx.
the cOnFuSeD kId theory enters my life again. hahahaha. u rock me outta my seat.*winks*
val. thanks for that song dedication. pretty cool.
Din. u rock la. thanks for the company. hope u had fun. n u can mug now.
Fab. take care.
GOD. i am gd. i think. dun worry. rmbr to call me for ur study periods.
and appa.
i miss u. there are 11 more days to ur death anniversary. i am afraid the significance of ur death is losing as the yrs come by. but no. i told u already. i wanna feel the pain. alto i am just hiding away. u cant go away just like tt. not ur memories. only those seem stagnant in the unpredictable life of Shree.
i miss u appa.
adioz.