i am moving on with life. i so finally see it.
as Sengoyz had put it. the light at the end of the tunnel.
after weeks of worry, i finally got the reply for my appeal from NUS. Yup i had appealed to change my course of study from Real Estate to Faculty of Arts and Social Sciences. and so this yr, Shree will be making her royal way to FASS... but for a yr only. i am planning to transfer my credits to SMU at the next intake.
SMU... i Wun take NO for an answer.
Sunday was Fathers' Day. i spent sat afternoon shopping for fathers' day presents and overly spent. for 4 ppl i considered worthy of the label dad. i think.
and sunday i made my way to amma's place. bought lunch from sakunthala's. and garland for appa. actually it was pretty dumb. i took the cab from tekka heading towards pasir ris when halfway i rmbred that i had forgotten to get him a garland. and so i asked the cabby to drive back. with a heavy heart.
i bet everyone was happily buying gifts for their dads. and wishing them happy father's day and teling them how much their father meant to them. and yeah with all this handicapped, i forgot to get him a garland. the only thing i cld eva get him.
oh but that din stop me from buying him 2 candle-with words written on them.
" for a special dad "
indeed. u are special, daddy.
i cun stop my tears from flowing when amma gave me the lit incense sticks to be offered to my appa.
its not like u are here for me to tell u hw much i love u.
i cant stand it father. i really cannot. i cun help looking at him after i had decorated it with the flowers i had bought him.
u looked so royally beautiful daddy.
and so my phone came in handy.
this is my daddy for u all to c.
see how handsome my appa looks. U need not be around appa. i still had my special father's day with u.
i miss u appa. and i know no matter hw many i tell u this i know tt u'd nvr know. cos i missed it all times u were here. i din tell u enuf... not at all even when u were ard. it has been 4 yrs. and it still kills me. just like the very first day... u killed me with ur death.
i just wan u to know smth. that life can nvr be the same. and no matter hw much i try to move on without u, i dun want to.
i wanna feel the pain. i wanna feel the loss. i wanna miss u badly. i wanna literally die to see u again. Just come back once n tell me u love me. one day. one day. one day.
and my dear friends... treasure ur dad's while they are around. sumtimes daddies spend too much time working... trying to save enuf for their kids. n we usually fail to show our appreciation.
DUN.
to aarthi, vishnu and cheryl.
we all know tt we can nvr turn back the clocks to see our dads. but lemme assure u all that they are watching over us closely.
my daddy told me tt. right appa?
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adioz.