its been so long since i blogged- once again. got loadsa things to let out. this blog nvr fails to be my outlet and catharsis and i m glad it is. i aint gonna make another announcement to tell big mouths to shut up and stop gossipping abt this blog.cos hell i dun care anymore if anyone should fail to shut their shit-filled gap.
1. growing pains.
so the new academic yr started for many. seeing my nephew start his 2nd yr in primary school, i wonder if i went thru such growing pains. haha. he loves school. but i feel he has so much to learn. assessmennt and tuition. i rmbr not having tuition till sec sch and nvr really had to study everyday afta sch. even the day b4 PSLE, i was watching PCK private limited! wahaha.
2.my first day of this sem
trust me i was one happy kid. haha. i simply cun wait to get back to school and start my nonsense. but of cos, i still have not started my revision for all the work that has been done in two weeks. sighz.
3.jack of all trades; master of none
listening to girish sir tells me sumth that i can nvr quite adhere to... he chooses to focus and excel in one - his dance. thats his passion and almost everything or rather the only thing he has. but he is excellent in it. i am just quite the total opposite.i put my feet into everything i wanna try. salsa, yoga, dance, singing, studying blah blah blah. and i like em all of cos. but i cannot exist without being myself and neither can girish be putting his feet into everything. the passion differs and neither is one lower than the other nor more supreme. its another perspective and oddly, the bizzare walks of life many stray into.
4.solitude
i am adamant of the fact that i know myself far better than anyone else. and this my reflective nature can attest to. i suddenly once told jaish that the more friends one has in life, there is a greater possibility for one to stray away from their goals and aims in life. my opinion of this is simple. u tend to spend more time with them, and for sumone like me, i surely wld try to. and if u wanna be persnickety abt being goal-driven,u choose to neglect unnecessary trouble and relationships which ultimately try to invade into ur time and life's balance. so the best way is to keep limits and focus. Even Dr.Black agreed. its time to turn dreams into reality.
5.odd
its odd how life plays with u. i am utterly shocked at my life's progresses and events so far this yr. one thing, retribution surely plays its role too well and do i even need to speak of karma. furthermore, it is appalling to see returning relationships- old friends and memories... its definitely nice to stay by and ask to be rooted and soaked in them once again. but hell, the whole world moves on and if u dun, u wld be left behind! maybe its the age to struggle btw teenagehood and adulthood. just like according to the author of The Little Prince, to be an undesired adult or a simple child. hmmm. i chose to re-read this book after 6 yrs. and it definitely opens my eyes. (though i still think he lied that its a book for kids, cos i feel its a total satire of adulthood)
btw, pertaining to whateva happened ysty night and today morn, i just think that sum ppl just deserve it.
நல்ல முத்துச் சுடர் போலே நிலாவொளி முன்பு வரவேணும் - அங்குக்
கத்தும் குயிலோசை சற்றே வந்து காதிற் படவேணும் - என்றன்
சித்தம் மகிழ்ந்திடவே நன்றாய் இளந்தென்றல் வரவேணும்
adioz.