its been abt ten days since i blogged. ten days flew by like a breeze yet many days hold pain and yet memories. memories of betrayal and true sincere love.
maybe u guys already know.i have been feeling pretty much unmotivated and lazy abt even getting my ass to school. i rather sleep in, do my tutorials late night and dream my days away. not exactly a gd way to cope with a void in my life, but sumhow, i have passed ten days. successfully. i think.
good stuff first.
i have learnt, i am now clear. thanks Fab for the call and the lil short meeting in between. got me moving. gg on. i am waiting. come back quickly.
many friends have come up to me saying how much i have motivated them to study but i aint doing the same.its so annoying. but hell i trying so hard. just get me off my bed. even my phone does not ring as often. but anyway the calls wun be picked up as well. so yupz.
well now to face reality, i have to make a proclamation. for all to read.
my past is fake. no longer authentic like how i thot it was. all the feelings and arrogance i held on to it; its no longer there. it has been shattered. totally. and all the remnants have been thrown away, no longer buried deep within me. i have been pretty selfish abt things the past six years of my life. if only i knew it all along, i wld been in a better position in my life. i always owed the way i have grown up and how i have been to this one person in my life and now i know its all not true.
i dun quite worry abt the loss of a supposed true fren cos of this dillemma. i dun quite worry abt the mess u put me into.all that hurt me and broke me was the betrayal u confessed to me.
of all the times,i chose to believe it this time round.
another ruined bday party by you,another harsh memory for me to hold.but i am holding it good. just one msg to u, if it wld ever get into ur head.
you have lost me COMPLETELY.
its time now to be fair and sincere. to the one who truly deserves it. and this i promise.
adioz.