and so it was.
i went to the temple today. and prayed really hard.
i seem to know wat i really want. and i know that there is no guarantee that God will give u what u want just cos u pray hard. and its not as though i am such a divine soul. just pious. and God-fearing. and even this does not mean again that i always get what i want.
my point is. there is nothing guaranteed in life. anything that is urs now might be mine the next min; u just never know. wat may seem the world to u one sec may seem like ur feet's dust the very next. like how i was telling jaish that day, wat u deem good may not be good the next day and wat is good to u may not be good to me.
so does it mean anything to hold on to whatever we have now? why why such confusion? why are there changes? why is it that u must be all resilient to them? its not that i dun want to, i am just wondering why. Braba's MSN nick is abt change, and jaish i bet u understand this post better than me.
and change also means that u should not bank on anyth. and that also means that there is no sense of absoluteness in anything. and as such, why den do u have anything in the first place? if there is anything at all, den there is something. if there is something, den there is a sense of definition right?? so u will bank on it right? and that change as well?
i din mean to confuse anyone. this is my work for the next two days. its Rene Descartes. my philosophy essay. here's an excerpt.
"I will therefore suppose that all I see is illusion. I believe none of the things reported to me by lying memory ever happened. I have no senses at all. Body, shape, extension, movement and place are chimeras. What true thing is left? Perhaps just the one fact that nothing is certain.
But where do I get this knowledge that there is nothing else—nothing besides all these other things I have gone over- concerning which there cannot be the slightest grounds for doubt? Is there not a God—or whatever I may call him—who implants in me the thoughts I am now having? But why should I think so, since perhaps I myself may be the author of these thoughts? In that case am I not, at least, something? But I have just said that I have no senses and no body."
Descartes
Second Meditation
well i think philosophy is one helluva science. it gets me all confused yet clearer. if u were thinking i am one confused soul, well think again. perhaps u are one as well. but its all abt attaining that knowledge. we will always be confused. always be skeptical. but i guess its all abt the learning and the willingness.
and so here is shree. i am confused. yet i am willing to learn. even if it means to fall. and fall. and fall again. if i cant learn or refuse to, my life thus far would be meaningless. and so will the next moment be.
nah. i aint gonna let that happen.
adioz.
vaarthaiya ithu mounama
vaanavil verum saayama?