today i did ntg and ntg.
i am sooo bored i tell u. aint that very interesting
i feel like giving up on this journey that i embarked on a coupla mths ago. but it aint fair for any decisions to be taken as of yet.
i am rather puzzled.
sch work - thr is just soooo much to do. and i hate life that is this unstable. all that emotional rollercoasters and worst still, ppl who randomly enter ur life, say a few things and run off. basket. dun be so empty can?
i need to get a grab on my life. why such self-faced boredom and monotony?
it sucks. to be the ultimate loser of selfish circumstances. and the one i wish wld be here for me, isnt the least bothered.
for now, i have fantasies to keep me occupied. no realities to strike in.and my head literally feels so heavy that i cant even think. i just realised that.
i haven been out in months. abt 3-4. my friendships all kept thru the fone. and after sch i just run home.
this kills. the refusal to let my inner self free kills.
why do i keep holding back so much?
adioz.