its been 25 days since i last blogged. gawd.
well ntg new, sch and its assignments. tests. oh well. week break is of no use. just the usual. tuition. less focus.
i am borrrreeeddd. bored of the order tho it is so very necessary. the lack of time cos of the busy schedule. aaargh. its getting into my head. but i am loving it anyway
i am thinking lately.
alot.
some things just dun change.
and let me tell u another thing.
shree will not.
adioz.
:: look into your heart ::
:: hear it speak ::
:: listen ::
:: hear it speak ::
:: listen ::
Friday, February 29, 2008
Sunday, February 03, 2008
forgetting the past?
maybe i was just wrong abt growing pains just pertaining to kids alone. looks like it has struck me too.
after certain things have happened in my life, i now know that one can believe wrongly and completely be made to believe somethings whic are not entirely true.
growing up while reliving the past at every other minute of ur life is not exactly growing up. Knowing quite my tendencies of not letting go of my past and holding onto them does not quite make me a very happy person. Right from my childhood pillow which i am still keeping to every minute detail of appa's funeral, from my pre-teen friends i still long to talk to to getting fed by amma and my teenage love;
nothing quite seemed to have moved on.
this does not make me a grown person and even so literally haha. and when PMS returns all goes haywire again. this is so damn sucky i muz admit.
i have learnt quite a bit these past two days. That people change and i muz accept it. No matter how much free time requires me to think and be happy about the supposed better past, it actually makes no sense. Btw, i wonder why i get all these reflective moments but dun have the strength to do anything proper abt it!
My entire vision of who i aim and will probably end up to be is not quite different from many. A good-paying job, a house of my own, at least two degrees in hand blah blah blah. But there is one aspect that is definitely gonna b different.
*****
Some dear of mine had asked me why i had not blogged abt me getting scolded on monday. well for the pleasure of u Vita, let me embarass myself!!
well amma had wanted me to get up early on monday morn because of her morn chores- fetching keertan from sch , gg to the market and cooking lunch etc. i also had had sch at 12. but the lazy me had woken up so late that mum's efficiency was halted and she cld not quite do many things ( well for some reasons.) i got SCOLDING from her later. well yes i did. cos after i woke up i rushed to iron my clothes and wat not. amma was just infuriated.
oh well. i am still sucha a baby anyway :P
இச்சை கொண்ட பொருளெல்லாம் இழந்துவிட்ட போதிலும்
அச்சமில்லை அச்சமில்லை அச்சமென்பதில்லையே
*****
the truth that is not longer true.
adioz.
after certain things have happened in my life, i now know that one can believe wrongly and completely be made to believe somethings whic are not entirely true.
growing up while reliving the past at every other minute of ur life is not exactly growing up. Knowing quite my tendencies of not letting go of my past and holding onto them does not quite make me a very happy person. Right from my childhood pillow which i am still keeping to every minute detail of appa's funeral, from my pre-teen friends i still long to talk to to getting fed by amma and my teenage love;
nothing quite seemed to have moved on.
this does not make me a grown person and even so literally haha. and when PMS returns all goes haywire again. this is so damn sucky i muz admit.
i have learnt quite a bit these past two days. That people change and i muz accept it. No matter how much free time requires me to think and be happy about the supposed better past, it actually makes no sense. Btw, i wonder why i get all these reflective moments but dun have the strength to do anything proper abt it!
My entire vision of who i aim and will probably end up to be is not quite different from many. A good-paying job, a house of my own, at least two degrees in hand blah blah blah. But there is one aspect that is definitely gonna b different.
*****
Some dear of mine had asked me why i had not blogged abt me getting scolded on monday. well for the pleasure of u Vita, let me embarass myself!!
well amma had wanted me to get up early on monday morn because of her morn chores- fetching keertan from sch , gg to the market and cooking lunch etc. i also had had sch at 12. but the lazy me had woken up so late that mum's efficiency was halted and she cld not quite do many things ( well for some reasons.) i got SCOLDING from her later. well yes i did. cos after i woke up i rushed to iron my clothes and wat not. amma was just infuriated.
oh well. i am still sucha a baby anyway :P
இச்சை கொண்ட பொருளெல்லாம் இழந்துவிட்ட போதிலும்
அச்சமில்லை அச்சமில்லை அச்சமென்பதில்லையே
*****
the truth that is not longer true.
adioz.
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